my 449th entry.

yet another lazy saturday. woke up late, since i slept late, stayed home the whole day, and slept at 5pm til 8pm. i'm getting too lazy, i didn't do anything constructive, like pack the mess in my room, or iron my clothes. HAHA. whatever lah. it feels like i'm heading nowhere, or maybe i'm just being emooooo. it feels like there's a 1001 reasons to be emo. then again, there's also 1001 reasons to be happy!

i was quite happy to hear some good news about my friends. haha :)

last evening i had this tangible feeling of being forgotten/forsaken. while i wasn't sure what happened, i tried hard not to doubt or think too much. but i seriously was on the verge of tears.

or perhaps i was on the verge of tears cos i felt stupid.

and i learnt no one can never fail me.

a problem that seems common and normal, but i never want to accept it the way it is. contradictory to how i look at the bigger issue that it leads to.

my life? seems ok. just that every once in a while, i plunged down that abyss of hopelessness and wallow in self pity. but i'll recover soon enough.

i swear it's pms.

i'm too used to ur sweet talks, now u're giving me attitude, and i totally dislike it.

i have a choice. mend it, or break it.

hmmmmm.

maybe i should be a real bitch.

Monday is officially Gym Day. HAHA.

this week has been good.

i made someone happy. i think that's a good thing. :)

i'm almost done with Have A Little Faith! my birthday present from Linda and the girls. i like that book. :)

oh and i recently bought an A4 notebook. guess why. to paste all the newspaper articles and magazine cut outs on GOOD FOOD. i'm gonna make a scrapbook for my FOOD ADVENTURE! so u can take a peek into my book and put ur name beside it, and probably a date too. when i decide to go for it, i'll ring you up and we could go together! hahahhahahaa i think i'm madddd. woooohoooo! but last night when i got home, i asked my mum for newspaper, she said she sold it all to the garang guni man alr. siannnn.

and here goes what i've been up to the whole week.

Monday, gym.

Tuesday, Minds Cafe @ Tamp Safra with Corrin, Elithia & Alyaa! :) they let me win at Settlers of Catan. so nice. hahahahaha.

Wednesday, G Zone service! Peck told me something exciting. i need to start praying about it, before i jump into it! hehehe. :)

Thursday, OT til 10.30pm. had late dinner/supper with Miguel and the always-hear-about-but-never-met-him-before Jeremy Auw. hahahhaa. Simpang! Prata was the bomb! i mean, i had Prata Bomb with cheese. actually, i got home at 12 plus, but i only slept at 3am. too full to sleep!

which means now, Friday, i'm damn tired. i feel like a zombie! but i'm having a good breakfast! Huggs chicken & egg sandwich and Huggs coffee. i like Huggs.

looking forward to my after work activities. simple pleasures that i don't usually get to do, and it takes the right company to enjoy it! :)

worth blogging about.

i've walked out of it. no regrets.

steven and i were talking about scorpio's vengefulness. i suggested that he probably was a scorpio baby who was swopped with a gemini baby. and he said i'm hard-hearted. yes i can be very hard hearted, if i have reasons to be. heh.

so i deleted him off my phone. can't remember his no. and have absolutely no reason to contact him anymore. i don't feel obliged to wait til dec anymore. oh yeaaaa. :)

hmmmm.

why do i not feel the least guilty???

i guess it's gonna be a good thing! heh.

i'm 22 years and 1 day old! :)

i had a smashing good time with the girls last night.

became friends with a twin.

my thoughts are all incoherent now. that's because i had 4 hours of sleep last night. i'm too used to having 7 hours of sleep a day.

steven just texted me about watching Ah Mei's concert on 30 January 2010. i'm happy to go watch her concert! i'm starting to have more things to look forward to in 2010! for this i should be happy!

but.... i'm getting emo cosssssss i'm wavering, i don't know what i want. my mind keeps playing back to that scene where you ask me if this is what i really want. i was very sure, so certain about it, i said yes. now i don't know if/how you'll be part of my 2010.